Can’t be bothered
There are some days that I just can’t be bothered and that feeling can continue for a few days, weeks or months depending on how my health is. At the moment I’ve been in can’t be arsed mode for about 2 weeks.
I don’t really know why, I can’t pinpoint one particular problem which has set me into this funk, I think it’s just a lot of little things and my brain has finally gone ‘nope, i’m done, had enough, check back later’.
When I get like this it can be really hard to do ‘normal’ things like, have a shower, talk to people, eat proper food etc etc. I know that if I made myself do all my ‘normal’ things I would come out of this faster, but, right now, I don’t have the energy to even do that.
I do know that at some point I will come out of it and then I’ll be fine for a while, that doesn’t really help my current train of thought however.
The only thing I can do is wait it out and do little things, I mean tiny, like have a shower, yay win! When you have anxiety, depression, any sort of mental health issue you really have to celebrate the little things, getting up, getting dressed, washing your face, these seem small and insignificant but not when your brain thinks your useless at everything.
So here’s to today, I got up, had a shower, came to the day job, I’ll take that for today thank you very much and here’s to tomorrow being slightly better.